Bye Bye and Thank you Ba-Ba!

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Luca: 26 months old

From Day 1 at his birth, a pacifier or pacifiers were his best friend. The hospital where we had Luca gave us a lot of pacifiers. Β He used to suck it all the time and eventually, we made him use it only for his bed time or nap time. But for a long time until now, he couldn’t leave his pacifier alone. If he cries, or hurt himself, he always relied on it. He loved to suck on it so then he felt secure, comfortable, and relax. When he had it in his mouth, he could fall to sleep right away.

I think not only Luca, his papa also relied on it as well because he didn’t want to deal with a cry baby. Once Luca has the pacifier in his mouth, he immediately stops crying.
At one point, we had 8 pacifiers so than anywhere you go, you have one pacifier for sure. When he cried, we could always give it to him “right away”. It was very convenient for us, and for him too. He loved it so much that he started to call it “Baba”. That was one of his first words.

But I started to notice like a month ago, when he smiles, I couldn’t see his front teeth at all. Comparing to other kids around his age, I thought it’s weird not to see his teeth because those front teeth are there but short. When I opened his upper lips, I could see where he sucks the pacifier at because those 2-3 teeth are the only ones shorter than the other ones. So I realized we need to stop using it.

In last mid-July, we planned to go up to Central California, Monterey, and Pacific Grove.
A few days before we left for the trip, I cut the tip of the pacifier by thinking he needs to know it is about to say bye-bye to the pacifier. Luca started to cry and kept saying “Baba broke!,Β baba broke!”. I still remember how painful it was to hear for me. I felt really bad for him. Maybe I did something wrong. His papa also told me I shouldn’t have done that. However, I told myself to hold it strong just for a few days then he will stop asking me about Baba.

In the Monterey trip, I hide one pacifier in my bag for just in case but I pretended I forgot to bring one. Luca kept asking me about Baba but I told him “Baba said bye bye because you are a big boy now. Baba had another baby to take care of now. His job with you are done and he is very happy with you that you are grown up.” I am not sure he understood that but he eventually stopped asking me or his papa for a baba. While we stayed in Monterey, he did ask us for it for a few times but when we say “remember, you don’t need one anymore” then he stopped asking without crying. I was very proud of him for not crying.

Now it’s been almost 2 months since we stopped using the baba. He does ask for it time to time but he is ok without Baba now.

I’m so glad I cut the tip of the pacifier now. πŸ˜€

Much Love,
Mama

 

Your first word of the year

Nash is trying to steal your snack! Watch out! πŸ˜†

Luca: 19 months old

You know your first word of 2017?

UP!!

You know “down” already and when you were going upstairs, and I said “up!”, you repeated after me “Up!”. I was so proud of you that you know what that means and can repeat when we teach you. 😊❀

Much Love,

Yuko

Stairs


Luca: 16 months old

As usual, I take you out for a walk after dinner and recently I realize how you climb or going down on stairs are more advance now. You don’t really sit down on stairs and try to reach it. You use handrails to go up and down. This is very new to me and you but I can see you want to try new thing and try to discover by yourself. I love what I see in front of me! 

Today, you went down stairs with no hands!! Wow, it was impressive! I was little afraid that you might miss a step and fall down so I was carefully watching you. But you did it!! You didn’t have to use the handrails at all (or my hands!)!! 

Day by day, you learn new things and you grow. And you become a big boy. I really enjoy watching your growth. (Well that means I have to really watch out where you are going! )

I’m glad I witnessed your new milestone  today. 😘

Much love,
Your mama

Labor Day weekend


Luca: 15 months old

Last weekend, Labor Day weekend was pretty much fun for Luca. I tried to take him out to different park 3 days in a row. Douglas Park, Colorado Park and Will Rogers Historical Park. It was his first time to visit Will Rogers and he had different experience compared to the other park. It had some horses and big polo field where he could run as much as he wanted to. They didn’t have any recreation part like swings or slides so that was bummer but they had sand field where he can play with his shovel. 

I like to take him out to any park because I can get to participate to discover new things with him or try new things. He tried a slide few times per visit and he wasn’t able to sit down and slide at the beginning but now he knows how to sit and slides (he still needs to hold my heads though). I am so happy to witness his growth like this. ❀️😘😍

By the way, I used to not like Douglas Park because there are too many adults and kids everyday in the weekend. But I see why it’s so popular now. It’s gated, they got a lot of sand fields and also have various slides. For toddlers who barely start walking to big kids. I like it a lot now that I take Luca there almost every weekend. 

It was nice and relaxing weekend for Papa and it was busy for mama but it was fun weekend. πŸ˜„


Such a cute mature look smile you got here!
After a lot of exploring, snack tastes good! Especially being outside makes you feel so good!
Looks! Horses!! Lets get closer next time!
He loves his red shovel and dig sands!
Hey, where are you going??

Breastfeeding is coming to the end! πŸ˜­


Luca: 14 months old

It has been over 14 months that I have been breastfeeding you. Day and night. Starting from every 2 hours since you were born which means even though it was 2 or 3 in the morning when you cried, I breastfed you. I pumped at work twice so then your Papa could feed you during my work hours. And now it dropped down to every 8-9 hours to feed. I still pump at work once at lunch time. Pumping is not easy thing to do especially when my work is busy. But at the same time, I can take a rest in the private Nursing room that my company provides us. I can hide for 30 min and spend a time for reading, watching videos or chit chatting with other moms in the room. It’s relaxing time for mama. 

I always thought breastfeeding was such a special activity to create a bond between mom and her child. And I’m super happy that I was able (still am!) to do for this long. Most of moms either couldn’t do or just quit because it’s not easy thing to do but I made this far! I just love looking at your face when you drink from me with your serious face. And I love the reaction when I say “it’s oppai (breastfeed in Japanese. Literally it means breast though) time!!” You express your joy and give me a big smile with the “milk” sign language (and jump on me)! You give ME a joy by looking at your smile!! Sometimes you bite, chew and pull me with your teeth (and it really hurts!!) and I wish you are able to learn not to do it but I guess you are having fun from my reaction (this is not right!). So when I see that, I stop feeding you. I hope you will learn one day very soon. 

But slowly but surely, my amount of milk is getting low at pumping time. I’m giving a try on the herbal tea which can produce more milk for this week but in terms of pumping, it may be a time to stop. I have a bittersweet feeling about this. I’m happy to quit so then I have more time for myself at lunch time but I’m super sad to quit because this is one of the signs that the breastfeeding session will be over soon. I know I can create more bonding time with you in different ways but I feel so melancholy. But I have to accept the fact that you are growing!! You are not a baby anymore. Time always goes really fast and takes away of fun stuff sometimes like this. But I guess we all need to grow and so are you, Luca! 

I’m very happy that you haven’t gotten any sickness so far. I believe this is because of my breastfeeding. Cheers to that!! πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ˜„πŸ˜„πŸ˜„πŸ‘πŸ»


Much love,
Your Mama

May and June Baby Birthday part

Where are you going? It ‘s time to take a picture!
Every parents try to put their babies in the area so then we can take a picture or two… but you just don’t care and just smiling at some adults…
Ellis and Luca. Ellis was one of the few babies who already knows how to walk.

Luca: 12 months old and 1 week

Parents I know from mommy and me class at Pump Station Santa Monica invited us for May and June Baby Birthday party at Douglas Park on Memorial Day. I was looking forward to seeing every moms and their babies how they are now. I expected to see those babies are already walking but they were still at crawling stage although every babies are different. I still thought if Luca meets other babies, he would get excited and play with them. 

When I put Luca in the babies’ circle, it was completely different from my expectations. Luca took a glance at babies and just walked away. 1 year old babies don’t really play each other? Or it’s just Luca that he thought it wasn’t his crowd? I am not sure but he didn’t seem to be interested. As you can see at the 1st pic, he didn’t want to be in a circle. Lol Oh well, he got some free spirits, I guess. That’s ok too. 

I was just happy that I got to see other moms and catch up a little. Some of the moms who has a boy goes through same thing as I do: boy throwing a tantrum, being aggressive when he is upset… When I see his anger, I tend to think, is it my fault? Did I or Papa show our anger at some point and he learned from us? The moms think same way as I do and I was glad to share that thought. I wasn’t alone I thought. 

I hope Luca and I can see them more often… 

Happy Birthday Luca! Part 2

Happy Birthday, Luca! I made banana pancake for your birthday! (it is a lot on plate but you and I shared)
As always… you want to grab my phone!
This sunglasses was a part of birthday gifts you received at the party. You don’t like anything on your face or head right now but hopefully you will get used to it.
Papa and I wanted to take you to the aquarium in Long Beach so here we are but we had to put something in our stomach! We were hungry and so were you! lol
With Papa
This is when the servers were singing a happy birthday song for you. You love people and you love to smile at them! That’s my boy! πŸ˜„ This world needs a lot of smiles and love, not hate!
I love this photo that you are looking up to your Papa❀️
This is my pork chop. Their stuffed pork chopped is the best!! At At Last Cafe in Long Beach
with love❀️

Bread pudding bite! We gave you such a small bite… Sorry but we didn’t want to give you too much sugar…
How was it??
Finally, we are at the aquarium! This is so pretty!
What do you see, Luca?
One of my favorites, jelly fish. So mesmerizing…

Luca: 12 months old

Solid food: almost anything! And cow milk!

I thought it was a long journey to reach this point for both of us, Mama and Papa. However, time goes really fast and the “tough” time that we didn’t know what we were doing at the beginning and thought it was tough seems to be such a long time ago and I almost forgot how tough it was. It was just a few seconds that it lasted. That’s how I feel like now. Because your smile, your hug, everything that you do with me or us is so rewarding and I love what I do for you so it doesn’t matter what it used to be now. 

I am so happy and so lucky to have you as our child. I am thanking God that he sent you to us and you are a gift and “miracle” for us. 

I love you always.
Your Mama

1st birthday party! Part 1

Happy Birthday, big boy! You looooove Thomas and Friends so the party theme is Thomas and Friends! πŸ˜„
This is my best friends, Luca! Vic, Oyie and Tim!
And Melaina! She and I work together and she is a good friend of mine also! πŸ˜„
Uhh look at the yummy cake! With Papa!
I wanted to put a birthday hat on you but apparently you didn’t like it… lol
With Mamiko and Ferdi. Ferdi and your birthdays are only 3 days apart!
You were helping me to put the bag away! You are always helpful for me, my love! 😘
Yum yum fruit cake from Angel Maid Bakery!
Your aunt and cousins were with you too.
Biiiiiiig baloons! I love these balloons. It is always to have fun, colorful balloons. And again, red, blue and navy… Thomas’s theme…

Great weather, great walk!

  
Luca: 11 months old

It has been a couple of weeks since you started to walk. Papa told me we need to get a pair of shoes because you walk around in our house so much now. So we did! We went to Gap and get a pair of shoes!

I’ve been thinking about taking you to a park for whole week and the weather is so gorgeous that I thought it’s a perfect day on last Saturday.  And you need more exercise because you wake up at least a couple times at night every single night. You need to learn how to sleep throughout a night. Seriously. πŸ˜’

So I found a nice big field/park right next to a place I’ve had a lunch with my colleagues which is called Stewart Park. The parking isn’t free but I thought it is a perfect place to let you walk anywhere you want to walk. There is not that many people use this place either. 

At first, when I put you on the ground, you hesitated to touch the grass and walk. You didn’t know what to do but after I guided you to walk, you were non-stop!!! You didn’t want to stop walking! It was pretty hot yesterday and wanted you to take a break under the shade but you refused! Lol Your face turned red, and sweaty. I gave you a sip of water and I was little worried that you would get sun burnt (I put tons of sun screen!). But you just kept going that it was difficult for me to make you rest. After 45 min we spent our time there, finally you wanted to sit and play with grass and leaf on the ground. I thought that’s it, you are done. But… After 5 min of rest, you started to walk again! I bet you are having so much fun to discover how to walk, the view that it’s higher than before and the nature other than being in the house. I’m so glad that I am helping you to discover a lot of things! And many many more to come!

  
 

I hope you like being on the swing! I think it’s a lot of fun!
  

Finally, you started to get used to be on grass! Now you walk non-stop!!
  
This park has one basket ball court. And behind it, they have slides.
    
It is such a BIG field. I saw people were playing volleyball and also you can play sofball here.
    
Two big kids swings and two little baby swings.

Stewart Street Park
Santa Monica, CA 90404

Love you very much,
Your mama