2016 was a tough year for your Papa and me especially his health and his beloved dog, Happy. And you got sick at the end of year and the cold goes on till now. Cough, sneeze, fever, runny nose… It has been 4 days so far but the symptoms still doesn’t get better. This is our first time and your first time to deal with your sickness so we are trying to figure out what is the best for you. Antibiotics or no antibiotics for a toddler? Tylenol or no Tylenol for fever that is for 101 degree? Is saline spray working or giving him a sinus infection? Every friends who are parents tell us same thing: steam in the shower room, mist humidifier, saline spray with a snot sucker, elevating his head while he sleeps etc… we do everything what they tell us to do but we are not sure if it’s working… We are just hoping you will be better soon, very soon.
First Turkey (you were eating solid food last year. 🙂 )
With your big cousin, Crosby
It was a fun Thanksgiving dinner at your Papa’s friend (Dustin)’s house.
Luca: 19months old
Happy Thanksgiving! One of Papa’s friends invited us over to their dinner so we took an hour drive to get there and joined their dinner party. 🙂 His friend’s wife, Rachel cooks such great food so I was very looking forward to it.
Too bad I didn’t take enough photos of food (and Rachel) but they were super yummy.
I wanted to steal learn her recipe and cook them at home! Especially, her sweet potato ball!! I just can’t forget the flavor. It was soooo good.
I was also thankful that she cooked such huge meal. I have tried to cook a turkey before but oh boy, first of all, I didn’t know how to cook Turkey. Second of all, it took forever (4-5 hours) to cook. I love to cook and all but it was tiresome.
But I am glad you got to taste delicious food for the first time! 🙂
Luca: 16 months old
On last Saturday, when I was cleaning Nash (our cat)’s litter box in our office, Luca was playing around behind me. I wasn’t sure what he was doing but I heard some cracking sound that it wasn’t pleasant to hear. Immediately when I heard it and saw what he did, I said “ohhh noooo!” and Papa rushed and came in the office and said “what happened??” And he saw broken pieces from the Classic Car Collection case which he kept for 40 years (he wanted to hand them over to him when he appreciates it).
He yelled at me and Luca why this happened. He immediately took Luca away from me and he put him in the play-pen. Luca knows what he did. That’s why he cried so much and tried to hide behind me. I tried to tell him not to touch those Papa’s toys but I guess how I said was soft, not strong enough.
I know I don’t scold Luca strong enough because I know Papa scolds him enough everyday. I don’t want to give too much stress on Luca’s early life. He is only 16 months. However I see in Luca’s eyes that I’m the soft one, Papa is the scary one. I don’t need to be the another scary one but I still need to discipline him. He needs to respect me and listen what I have to teach him.
So I decide myself to be consistent and tell what is right and what is not right with deeper voice (apparently some studies show that a child won’t listen to someone who teach him in high pitch voice.) and serious eyes. I have to look into his eyes and tell him “no”, simple instruction. It has been for a few days since I started doing this and it looks like it working on him. Sometimes he does something that is not supposed to be happening but it’s too funny to me. I just can’t help myself but laugh. I debate myself should I laugh or not but I’m a human being too. I have to laugh when I want to laugh. Discipline can come next… I have to be easy on myself otherwise I will get stressed out. That’s not good. Be easy to make my life easy! 😀
Anyway, it’s not easy to discipline Luca since he is a human being too and I want to respect that. Hopefully I don’t overthink what the discipline about and we can corporate each other.
Last weekend, Labor Day weekend was pretty much fun for Luca. I tried to take him out to different park 3 days in a row. Douglas Park, Colorado Park and Will Rogers Historical Park. It was his first time to visit Will Rogers and he had different experience compared to the other park. It had some horses and big polo field where he could run as much as he wanted to. They didn’t have any recreation part like swings or slides so that was bummer but they had sand field where he can play with his shovel.
I like to take him out to any park because I can get to participate to discover new things with him or try new things. He tried a slide few times per visit and he wasn’t able to sit down and slide at the beginning but now he knows how to sit and slides (he still needs to hold my heads though). I am so happy to witness his growth like this. ❤️😘😍
By the way, I used to not like Douglas Park because there are too many adults and kids everyday in the weekend. But I see why it’s so popular now. It’s gated, they got a lot of sand fields and also have various slides. For toddlers who barely start walking to big kids. I like it a lot now that I take Luca there almost every weekend.
It was nice and relaxing weekend for Papa and it was busy for mama but it was fun weekend. 😄
This just happened last Saturday. He was complaining he has been having a headache over a month now. So his PCP gave him Flonase to take care of the headache. He had the first take on last Saturday followed by 2 cups of coffee. This combination gave him a similar to a stroke. His heart rate went up to 200 for a moment and went down to 140-160. Once he sat down and rest, his heart rate became normal but as soon as he got up and started to walk just to go to a bathroom, his heart rate went back to 180 or so. We went to ER three times over the weekend and finally he was accepted to admit at the Keiser on Sunset Blvd. I thought he would be better to be admitted and be monitored. We were scared, Luca.
Your Papa takes care of you so well and I don’t know what to do without him. He is a strict person but very warm, thoughtful and fun person as well. He might be tough on you but he won’t forget to make you laugh after you cry.
After this what happened to your Papa, I thought you and I should NOT take your Papa for granted. We should always show our love to him (or anyone you care!) and our appreciation. You never know when God needs him (or any of us) and bring him back to heaven. I hope it’s not anytime soon.
It has been over 14 months that I have been breastfeeding you. Day and night. Starting from every 2 hours since you were born which means even though it was 2 or 3 in the morning when you cried, I breastfed you. I pumped at work twice so then your Papa could feed you during my work hours. And now it dropped down to every 8-9 hours to feed. I still pump at work once at lunch time. Pumping is not easy thing to do especially when my work is busy. But at the same time, I can take a rest in the private Nursing room that my company provides us. I can hide for 30 min and spend a time for reading, watching videos or chit chatting with other moms in the room. It’s relaxing time for mama.
I always thought breastfeeding was such a special activity to create a bond between mom and her child. And I’m super happy that I was able (still am!) to do for this long. Most of moms either couldn’t do or just quit because it’s not easy thing to do but I made this far! I just love looking at your face when you drink from me with your serious face. And I love the reaction when I say “it’s oppai (breastfeed in Japanese. Literally it means breast though) time!!” You express your joy and give me a big smile with the “milk” sign language (and jump on me)! You give ME a joy by looking at your smile!! Sometimes you bite, chew and pull me with your teeth (and it really hurts!!) and I wish you are able to learn not to do it but I guess you are having fun from my reaction (this is not right!). So when I see that, I stop feeding you. I hope you will learn one day very soon.
But slowly but surely, my amount of milk is getting low at pumping time. I’m giving a try on the herbal tea which can produce more milk for this week but in terms of pumping, it may be a time to stop. I have a bittersweet feeling about this. I’m happy to quit so then I have more time for myself at lunch time but I’m super sad to quit because this is one of the signs that the breastfeeding session will be over soon. I know I can create more bonding time with you in different ways but I feel so melancholy. But I have to accept the fact that you are growing!! You are not a baby anymore. Time always goes really fast and takes away of fun stuff sometimes like this. But I guess we all need to grow and so are you, Luca!
I’m very happy that you haven’t gotten any sickness so far. I believe this is because of my breastfeeding. Cheers to that!! 👍🏻😄😄😄👍🏻
Luca: 1 year old and a month
This is your Papa’s 2nd Father’s Day. He has been taking care of you by himself because I have to go to my work full time since July 2015. I know it is not easy job to do by himself but he is doing it! He is a smart and very organized Papa so it didn’t take too long to figure out what works for both of you guys even though he had a dr appointment here and there.
Celebrating Father’s Day, I can not forget to show my appreciation to my dad even though he is no longer with us. He was a smart, funny, motivated and talented person. He was a very strict person too. But what I remember about him was how very active, multi talented person he was. He played golf, fishing, soccer, played a guitar, and a base and sing. Until he got sick at the end of his life, he kept playing and singing in his country western band “Drifting Daddies” with his friends that he hang out with since his high school era. He retired from his company when he was 63 (I think…) and since then he lived with his hobbies. He worked hard, he played hard. That was his life style and I admire that so much.
My dad used to tell me I was his avatar. I am doing something he wanted to do when he was younger. To live in foreign country and be independent. But instead he chose his career and his family. When I proposed to join the exchange student program, he (and my mom) was hesitated to let me go but he saw how serious I was about my dream, he let me go. The first plan to stay in US was just a year. And later on I wanted to go back and become makeup artist or hair stylist. The plan was just for a couple years. And now I am still here after 20+ years. My dad used to say “come back now. You spent plenty of time to make your dream come true. Now it’s time to spend with your family. ” I refused him and started to live my own financially after graduating my college. I don’t regret my decision but I regret that I didn’t get to spend enough time with him when I could have.
I love my dad who inspired and changed my life. Even though we were so far apart between Japand and US, he still supported me as a mentor. I wish he was here and was able to meet you. I’m pretty sure he would give you different spectrum of life.
I thought it was a long journey to reach this point for both of us, Mama and Papa. However, time goes really fast and the “tough” time that we didn’t know what we were doing at the beginning and thought it was tough seems to be such a long time ago and I almost forgot how tough it was. It was just a few seconds that it lasted. That’s how I feel like now. Because your smile, your hug, everything that you do with me or us is so rewarding and I love what I do for you so it doesn’t matter what it used to be now.
I am so happy and so lucky to have you as our child. I am thanking God that he sent you to us and you are a gift and “miracle” for us.